Sinking deeper into despair
no idea how i got there
one look at you makes me feel ill
time once again, to take twenty pills
one after the other, in they go
and why i did this, they don't know
but deep deep down YOU know you do
i took these pills because of you
ripped my life into shreds
crying every night, wish i was dead
stabbed me over with your words
causing more and more pain and hurt
put me down and stole my life
over and over i reached for a knife
looked down on me, because i cut
what a perfect way to show your hurt
you stole my life, and my heart
this is the only way we will safely part
you hurt me more than anyone
and i know for a fact you thought it was fun
i died inside and now outside too
because of the awful things you do
you cut yourself, and then blame me
and i was just too blind to see
that it wasn't my fault, not at all
I was just running to your beck and call
i cried for you and cut for you to
you knew I'd eventually loose a screw
I messed up bad, turned everyone against me
and would ignore my desperate plea
for help to get me out of this depression
to make my one and only confession
the looks of disgust on peoples face
promptly put me in my place
that i was low and a piece of scum
inferior to everyone
you looked on in silence and let me suffer
let me think confession would make me tougher
but everyone thought I cut because of you
to get attention, how untrue
and now I'm lying here on my bed
you messed up my life and my head
i just couldn't cope with the strain
of my life being like constant rain
there will never be a shining sun
because I'm feared by everyone
you didn't just tell them I seek attention
you didn't just say it was fake depression
you said i had turned my shining knife
one night on you to take your life
no one comes close, you they believe
they'll be glad, when i leave
forever and never to come back
everyone is safe, i can't attack
goodbye to you and to this world
my life had become a dreadful curse
