Help

With each day that passes my life becomes more out of control.
My friends, boyfriend, and my ex's all haunt me
Im not who i used to be, tons of things have changed
Too many fights with people have taken over my life
I cant deal with this anymore so what do i do?
Anxiety attacks are hitting me harder than a ton of bricks.
I grab my chest and fight for air as i close my eyes
Everything i have ever done wrong fills my head
Heart sore, head pounding, it hurts so bad.
Help me, too much for me