Too Sad

Today could possibly be
The worst day Of My life
But I won't be emo
And go look for a knife

I had fun at school
But then I must go home
The only place I'm suppose to be happy
When I really feel alone

My father's always yelling
and My mother doesn't care
And every time I cry for help
None seems to be there

I sit in my room all night
Wishing my pain away
Wondering when i can stop
When the Paine ill fade

But I won't kill myself
Although Its what I yearn
I couldn't leave my mother
Not with this heavy burden

I can't be so selfish
As to leave people in this sorrow
And I won't kill myself ever
Even If I feel this way tomorrow

Because I know I would leave
And god would be so mad
He meant for me the stay on earth
And I can't go get the knife
Or the gun
I'm so too sad