Him, Once Again

Smile at me dear,
Let me see your eyes.
Cut me with your words..
As our hands entwine.

I know that he did it,
pulled you on so slow.
You're better than that,
You know it.
Don't let him have control.

I let him for the longest time,
use me like today.
He abused me in so many ways,
it wasn't worth it..
for me to stay.

I let him play his games,
that I joined in for long.
I let him toy me,
I let him have my soul.

I didn't care,
as long as it would end.
The pain every night,
knowing he would sneak into my bed.

It was sick.
And it was wrong.
He's a man.
Not a father.

It's always about him.
Him and his pointless phase.
I hope he dies.
But yet I hope he stays..