Fine as before

Tears behind my eyes,
start forming quietly.
But I can not let you see,
just how different I feel.

I just want you to know,
I´m fine as before.
Fine I´ve always been,
in front of your eyes

You do´t seem to care,
to try to figure out.
That fake laugh I show,
and joy tears you think.

I´m just so confused,
I can´t tell you or explain.
What is wrong with me,
or either what is right.

You ask me if I´m ok,
well take a guess and tell.
You say you´ll always be there,
maybe this is the time you say.

So many things,
so many thoughts.
Running trough my head,
all night and day.

I just wish we could,
just sort our things out.
Because I don´t really want,
to loose you at all.