Lost Myself

I feel so lost, or rather,

I dont know what to feel

Im not really depressed

A bit down, I guess

But not entirely depressed

Ive been sad for so long

Happiness rarely reached me

But the sadness is mostly gone

So why cant the happiness reach me?

I know things are getting better

Slowly, but I can see it

I dont want to die

But I cant live like this

I lost myself at one point

But now theres a new me

Should I stay like this,

Or go back to what I was before?

People are used to the new me

More know this me than the past

Maybe I havent lost myself

Maybe I just lost a part of me

All I know is Ill never get it back

Its too late to get it back