So many times...

So many times i want to drop love and go
so many times i want to forget about that romance that was in me and walk away
so many times i wish i could just jump into a hole that never ends and maybe die from falling
so many times i try not to cry
but they just keep coming out
like the raining sky
so many times i hate romance
that it makes me can't sleep at night
but so many times it keeps making me come back and think about it
day and night
is this what love does?
when you no longer want it anymore?
i once already broke a heart
how many chances in life will i get?