I STILL CANT CRY

Why cant i cry one single tear
why when i drink even
this lump in my throat remains there

my vision continues to be a blur
but why?
things are so much better than they were

inside i feel a sadness which i can not describe
should i talk about it....?no,I'd rather go and hide

yet when i am alone i still can not cry

emotions run through me
like water does a faucet
these feelings ...they're constant

if a tear would fall
i may be relieved
only i hang onto them ...
am i dwelling on grief

i cant describe the reason or why
i just wish to understand why i still cant cry

A. Rachelle Langton