What will i do?

I'll sit here alone
yes i will wait
but why must
it be this long

that is very true
13 weeks is long,
10 days not enough
4 years after that

honestly why does
this have to
be so damn tough
on the both of us

hurting me deeply
not seeing your smile
hearing your voice
or feeling you lay by my side

I'll be counting
the days until
i get to have
you with me again

things will be different
yes i do know
hopefully i can
manage to hold on

we both say
this is what we want
but something tells me
for you it's not

why do i feel that
feeling that i shouldn't
you tell me
i am what you want

i just want, i just
need to know
please show me, or
tell me this piece of info.

what if over time
you don't want me
what will i do
after i had waited for you?