So f**cking torn

Crimson regret
on pallid cheeks
eyes stained with blackness
for to many weeks...
ritual cuttings
so much blood
everythings F**CKED
whys it so hard....
i just wanna die
its the easy way out
im chickening out
im pulling out
i sit in the shower
and scrub at my skin
scrub till its red raw
i scrub cos i smell of him
and THATS KILLING ME!!!
i dont smile anymore
nothing seems funny
im so f88cking torn
everyones worried
you think i need help...
i know you do!!!!
because i \\\"hurt myself\\\"
you dont get it do you...
this pain is my only pleasure
my only way out
cos theres no cure
for being dead inside
im just a shadow passing through
stare into my vacant eyes...
dont deny what you see
you see me struggling to get out
GET THE F**CK AWAY FROM ME!!!
ive been torn in half and left to die
i sit alone
i sit and cry....