Something Is Wrong

I'm surrounded by friends
I'm surrounded by people who care
Yet I can't help but feel
that no one is REALLY there.

People say I look pretty
People say I look content
But deep down inside
My heart is shriveled and bent.

I go out, I see my friends
I laugh and I joke
But deep down inside
I silently choke.

I'm just a fake
Pretending to be okay
When really it takes all my energy
Just to get through one simple day.

I'm deeply in love
For him I really do care
Yet my deepest innermost feelings
I can't even share.

My sister I truly love
Love more than words could ever say
But I don't want her
Caught up in my inner fray.

My family are special to me
I love them so
But I don't know if
I can take this pain anymore.

My friends are my angels
Without them I don't know what I would do
But not one of them knows
How I really feel-They don't have a clue.

I have so much to live for
And that's what keeps me strong
But every single day
I can't help but feel something is wrong.