You're Destroying My Mind.

Daddy,
You have me so confused
Confused yet again
I don't know if you are
My father, foe or friend.

You don't talk to me in months
Out of the blue you call
Aren't you supposed to be here
To help catch me when I fall?

I don't see you for months
Out of the blue you appear
All at once it comes crashing back
My hopes and my fear.

You give me money
Which I tried to refuse
Yet you wouldn't have it
Do you think without it you would lose?

Do you think you would lose me?
Do you think I want to be bought?
I must admit my emotions
Are rather fraught.

Do you think that I would
REALLY let you buy me?
Do you think I'm that kind of person?
This really hurts-don't you see?

I don't want to be bought
I want a real DAD
This is one of the few simple things
That would make me really glad.

You lied to me on the phone
Which you easily admit
Are you trying to throw me back
into that depression pit?

I have never lied to you
So why lie to me?
Is a liar the only thing
That you know how to be?

I remember the lies you told
When I was little
Do you really feel okay
When my feelings you belittle?

You actually told me
That you were dying
I spend days after that
Doing nothing but crying.

I found out that lie
Wasn't even true
Yet I couldn't stop crying
I was really blue.

because I didn't know how
You could lie about something like that
And all my friends were telling me
You were just a lying prat.

If you can lie about something like that
I think you need help of the psychiatric kind
because I really do believe
That you have an insane mind.

I'm so confused
I don't understand
How can you act this way?
daddy, I don't understand.

I'll never say any of this to you
Because here's what you HAVE taught me
How to hide my true feelings
How to make people unable to see.

I know I can't always be like this
Sooner or later I have to talk or I'll explode
But I don't know hot to REALLY talk
Why did you take me down this road?

I just want to know
Where I stand with you
I just want to know
If your love will ever be true.

How can you be so cruel?
How can you be so unkind?
Please just stop it Daddy
For you're destroying MY mind.