Never Say Goodbye

A fun-filled night awaited us
And happily, we welcomed it.
We allowed ourselves to be swept away
And carried out to the moonlight.
We hadn't wanted to say goodbye.
No. Never.
We held each other close,
Neither wanting to let go,
But neither wanting to come closer either,
To let the other know
What was fluttering through their hearts.
He kept his arms around me
And held me to his body,
I tried to pay attention to the others,
Other people who were sitting in the room,
But all I could think about was him.
How his head bent down,
Just slightly,
To rest on top of mine,
How his fingers stroked my hand
And he breathed down my neck.
And we didn't want to say goodbye.
No. Never.
His friends and he decided
That it was time to leave.
I helped him gather up his stuff
And walked out to the car.
I didn't want to say goodbye.
No. Never.
But, somehow, I forced myself
To hug him, and let him go.
All I had to mull over
Was that they had said they'd be back.
So I walked back inside,
And sat on the couch,
As my friends sat down,
And poked and teased.
I went to bed
With a smile on my face
And woke up the next morning
With a name on my lips.
I ate in silence
And eagerly awaited their arrival,
Because the guys had said
They'd be back.
Right?
The car pulls into the driveway,
We all jump up.
They walk into the house.
I catch his eye
Just for a moment
Then we both turn away.
We sit on the bench
In the park for a while,
And sit on the couch
In the living room.
Together, almost touching,
And neither wanting to say goodbye.
No. Never.
But my ride had come,
And it was time to leave.
My friend and I hugged everyone goodbye.
I must have hugged him three times
Before setting out towards the car.
He took my bag
And lead me to the car.
Of course, I wanted to give him one last hug,
So I took my bag
And threw it in the car.
Then I turned and faced him.
He took me into his arms
And I willingly went to him.
As he held me close
I told him I'd miss him.
A lot.
He said it back,
And squeezed me in a reassuring way.
I was nervous as to what I had to do,
But I did it.
As I turned to go to the car,
My lips grazed his cheek
And as I jumped into the car,
He looked at me,
And stared.
Just stared.
We never wanted to say goodbye.
No. Never.
But as we pulled out of the driveway,
I saw him motion to me
And blow a kiss in my direction.
I smiled, and as he and his buddies
Chased after the car,
I whispered, "Goodbye."
We never wanted to say goodbye.
No. Never.
But kissing goodbye?
Someday, I'll be able to live with that.