I like how u put your life in your poem. u should write more, get it all out, thats wat i did, but my problems aren't as bad. Dont die, live strong. ^_^

This was really touching.
I also lost 2 of my brothers but i never got to meet them.

Your poems are might i say very touching. Your brother must have ment a lot to you. I have lost my grandpa we were really close, and at first i wanted to die too, but like you, i got to thinking if he were still here today what would he have wanted? Not for me to die. Keep your self strong and keep your head high. Some people dont get to have the experience of even having loving brothers. You know he still loves you and its good that you have memories of him. I hope one day you really start to enjoy life and stop being depressed, i know this loss will always hurt, but you have a future to look forward to..think of how proud he would be to see you suceed in life.