I want you but then again I dont

Is there a feeling to describe
what i am going through?
I am happy as can be,
yet not completely satisfied with
how things turned out.
I want to keep telling myself it was
for the best.
But im not sure..
I need to know that I made the right decision.

It will be hard to go on not talking to you
but i need to, if i keep talking to you
it will just make the decision i choose that much
harder to deal with
But I guess since Im second guessing myself it
was not the right one.

Whatever!
I am going to be happy
and I am going to forget about you.
Like you forgot how you had a girlfriend,
shes in love with you and your being
a dishonest little boy.
I should expoilt you for what you really are,
a waste of a human body.

Yes, Yes I know I just totally contradicted myself.
I want you, yet i dont.
Feelings arent always certain and neither am I.
But its time to say our "goodbyes."
And say it was fun while it lasted.
Tempation makes people do crazy things, but Im glad I didnt buckle.

Dont hurt her anymore. She deserves better then you.