Shattered

Praying to god every night
Begging for an end of my pain
Pleading for guidance to the light
Tears falling from my eyes like rain

Crying myself to sleep at night
A country song describes my life
My heart dying a piece at a time
Missing my wonderful wife

Dying inside an empty house
No wife, no kids, barren soul
Echo's of my family always near
Heart blackening like coal

Pictures of you and I around me
Sad songs playing in the room
Seeing what we had before
Wondering how it ended in doom

Talking to you when you felt good
Fulfilled my prayers, raised my hope
Denial by you, pain renewed
Dying again, trying hard to cope

Expressions of love yet again
Rollercoaster of my heart
When does the ride end
Why do we have to be apart

I thought I was everything to you
Strong silent guy I always tried to be
Keeping my feelings bottled inside
Thinking that's what you loved in me

Regretting I didn't let my feelings show
Feeling your love that's now in check
Undying love I always had for you
The family we shared now a wreck

Parents and family saying run away
Looking like there is no turning back
To far down the tracks to turn around
Must keep the focus, stay on the attack

Don't let anyone rule our lives
Let us lead ourselves, be our own master
Do what we feel in our hearts
Our lives will mend that much faster

I'm not the man that you left
Open yourself to the changes I made
One day at a time is what they say
Don't hold back, don't be afraid

We made it through hell together
Too many years to just throw away
I am still the man you love inside
What was shattered can be remade

Dan B 10/31/06