Lost In Silence

Lost in silence
In this world I call my home.
Does anybody hear my mental screams?
Or am I silent to the bone?

Do you see the pain on my face?
The scar in my heart?
Or is my happy mask on so tight,
that no one can take it apart?

My mouth is duct taped shut,
My emotions are bedded deep within,
and I know, no matter how hard they press,
I'm not letting anybody in.

My heart has been ripped out too many times,
the pieces are becoming so small that they're hard to pick up,
my body feels like it's supporting an empty shell,
whose never heard of a thing called luck.

People try to talk to me,
telling me that they understand,
but I know in reality they don't,
they just want an excuse to hold my hand.

I tell them I'm fine,
they tell me I'm not.
How can they tell me how I feel,
When my mind's the only friend I've got?

So take all your lame excuses,
and tell them to some other kid.
Just because I don't like to share my emotions,
doesn't mean I can't snap or cave in.

So I'll hide my emotions and I'll wait
with the words lost in silence ensketched in my mind,
waiting for that special someone to hold out their hand to me,
and tell me that it's time.