Raped from childhood

I have been raped from my youth
Raped cruelly and thrown to the streets
Like a piece of unwanted garbage
With no one to run to for comfort and nowhere to hide from this world
I got trapped in this dark doom place
A place that existed only in my head because no one else could see it
Trapped like a rabbit in the cage of his capture waiting for the hunter's next move
But nothing his innocent eyes has seen can measure to my eye's theatre
A theatre that features what my soul has lived and what my heart has felt
The endless sorrows that a person couldn't survive even if they tried to resist it
What my eyes have seen hasn't been edited in the history of my heart
It has been deleted from my files that were engraved in my mind
But it still hunts my dreams with vengeance that a person can't help but scream
I have seen a lot of blood spilled for satisfaction
Blood from the ones that I hold dear
Blood that was spilled so unfairly and cruelly from one another
Blood that was withdrawn form a stab on the back
Stabbed and then drunk from the body to drain its strength and weaken its resistance
Drunk by one's own family who one has trusted and thought true
But this world is cruel with its sneaky existence
Its evil that is hidden under a skin of pure kindness that's which makes it hard to know its true nature
Its gentle smile that fools the mind and weakens the soul and in the end captures the heart
But in the end the only one who gets hurt and suffocates from the strength of its loss is the one who loses one's heart