I'm Sorry

Horror.
The look on my mom's face when she comes in and sees me lying in a pool of my own blood.
I'm sorry, Mom.
Disappointment.
The look on Katie's face when she hears that I kill myself because I've lived a horrible life.
I'm sorry, Katie.
Despair.
The look on the faces of all my friends and family when they hear that I ended what was causing me so much pain.
I'm sorry, everyone.
The pain deep inside, knowing there was nothing they could do to stop me.
The questions.
They wonder why I would do this to myself.
I left it all in my goodbye letter:

Everyone,
I'm sorry for always putting everyone down.
I'm sorry for never smiling, even for a picture with my best friend.
I'm sorry for never believing in myself like you all believed in me.
I'm sorry for not seeing how much you all really cared.
I'm sorry for not being there when everyone needed me.
I'm sorry for thinking that every "I love you" was a lie.
I'm sorry for always being depressed, but it's hard not to be when you've had your heart broken 5 times.
I'm sorry for all the cuts and scars on my arm.
I'm sorry for leaving you all.
So, Mom, Katie, and everyone else, I love you and goodbye.

Love,
Dana

Now I'm just a ghost that still lingers around the broken souls of the people I once loved.