So Confused

Ive got you,
but somehow I want her?
I know you need me, I need you to,
but our love has become some what of a blur.
My heart is breaking,
Yet remaking?
What is this I feel?....

I see her smile at me,
Yet I smile at you,
I try not to let her see,
that I want you to.
Why do I desire this love,
has not my recent love been used.
Can anyone help me from here or above,
I am just so lost and confused.