Laughing at me while my sentence has been past,
She screams in the mirror 'Defy me No more'
'Suffer in my Lust and you shall be reborn'
My hand lean on the glass leaving my mark,
Prints made with the life through me,
Blood shock vision and the feeling grows,
Just before the liberation, bellowing once more,
'Disgusting, humiliation, this be your tomb, Scum'
Forces course through my vulnerable core,
Failing to stop, feeling the burning ascending,
Expelling the repulsive performance,
Splutter my stained words and sinful thoughts,
Into the coloured hollow basin,
My creativity, my identity escaping my grasp,
Head down to cry my hands are shaking still,
' Tears are for the weak, pathetic as you always were'
'Disgrace! Deceitful! Look before you and tell me,
what beauty is there to be found, in a gutter full of filth'
Lift my head, and face my consequence, a dream i can't make,
Grey gloom in the eyes of a lost soul, not again,
Knees buckling, raging brooding and the demons begin to dance,
Clamber up the throat as i contemplate a sorry,
Heave the blasphemy and may i repent the wicked,
More to fill, the basin now drenched in muck, dear god,
Trickles of a shade i deny to see, my sins are blushing,
Please, in wishing to stop but compelled to go, now,
Feasting on my betrayal, my punishment for disobeying,
There be a ray of hope, it fails to shine down on me,
Heaven's ever burning torch fueled by faith, does not light my way,
The demons with hell fire prancing within me, setting alight,
My intentions to find remorse, forgiveness and compassion,
For what i am, a dark one i may be, fallen from the grace,
And find my way through temptation and its scorn,
Death kiss my lips every night when fiends ball begins,
My finale a gory one, and no velvet curtain fall, but a shaken head,
Collaspe to the floor in a heap, to awake at dawn, to once more,
Begin my Affliction.
