This is not life

I want to run away
Inside my bright red scream
I want to break the doors
Holding back my dream

Living like this
Checking the skies for rain
A constant reminder
Of this burden and pain

I'm holding on to
A shooting star
Its points cutting my skin
This time it's gone too far

Nothing left to wish on
My bloody star fell
Left me drowning in hopes
Inside my wishing well

Not looking for a hero
To owe such a debt
I could not ask for saving
This loss is not a regret

I want to run away
But there's nothing out there
I want to shatter windows
That look out on nowhere

This is not life
If I'm already dead
My bleeding heart stopped beating
And tears I no longer shed.