Here i die

As the night falls.
so does my heart.
night brings empty loneliness.
i return home.
my stomach churns.
no one knows of the pain i endure.
its hard to look at me ans see tears behind smiles isn't it?
i feel the happiness of being a child never happened.
i cannot remember when i had no problem or worries.
if only you knew of my story's.
i cry myself to sleep at night.
the rain sends some comfort as it cries along with me.
words that cannot be brushed aside.
nothing but lies.
my pride is broken.
many words not yet spoken.
judged by my own family.
i shy away from the world.
here i die and hurl.
my life is revolting, a disgusting thing.
here i die.

rayne