Never going back

Tears are all I see
Leaking from my eyes
Will I ever be happy?
In this unbearable life of cruelty
I think about the future
Then I cant think
Because All I can hear are the sobs
Being torn from my lungs
There is no one in this world
To listen to my thoughts
But myself
So the only thing I can do
Is cry
I want to be able to laugh again
To smile a genuine smile
Not forced
For my fake friends
Who dont really care
I am just a novelty
The new girl
The new girls hanging out with them
So I wait till I get back
To not home but just a house
Where all I can do is sit
And feel the tears fall
Down my face
Into this life of sadness