Cant sleep now

What are you going to have to think about
When you lie awake and canâ??t sleep at night.
Pretty things that are well saidâ??
Itâ??s nice to have them in your head.

i think i have gone mad i dont know how i feel and how to explain this love that i have for him.
I told him that he has to make a choice about marrying me and i hope that he does choose me.

I wanna be the reason why he smiles. To get to him I would walk a million miles.
I wanna be the one that loves and holds him through the years. I wanna be the reason he cries those happy tears. I wanna be the reason he wakes up happy every morning. I wanna be the one whose arms he runs to for comfort. I wanna be the reason he smile when he sees my face. I wanna be the reason why he feel safe.

Today Iâ??m missing him, our conversations, and our company that kept each other from loneliness. I keep up looking up at the moon & praying to hear his voice once more. I feel lost without him; the moonlight is not enough to help me home.
I cry to the moon because it's the only thing around to hear me. Iâ??m cold & afraid, yet I deny my true feelings to others. I feel like thereâ??s nothing left, inside me, Iâ??m empty & around me is just a smug of life that lives. Remembrance of his touch, his kiss, his dark eyes, his laugh, & his words; oh his words so powerful! My other half has disappeared; all that's left is the moon & the light it bears!

I canâ??t believe itâ?¦I have fallen in love with him and now I want him more than anythingâ?¦.he is great and I love him to bitsâ?¦â?¦..I can now tell you that love is neither a feeling nor an addiction. Love is a choice which is built or torn down by a series of related choices. I know it is possible to crave the feelings you experience when seemingly falling in love or infatuated with another. It is like an emotional high(a drug you might say) that you crave. The more you experience it the more you crave it. I've had personal experience in this before. So, I definitely have to say it's addictive.