I cant make up my mind was it a good thing or bad?
I picked up the phone we talked all night and i was glad
For the longest time someone helped me smile
Talking all night was definitely worthwhile
He didn't expect it but I called him the next day
If i had trouble with anything he always told me it would be okay
I called him everyday from that day on
The sadness and tears i had before were foregone
One night on the phone i said "Please promise not to fall in love with me."
He promised and i couldn't believe that it was that easy for him to agree
I wanted to tell him not to let ME fall in love with him but how could he promise that?
We talked every single day but i didn't want to fall in love, i called him just for a chat.
Yes, I know I'm lying to my self, i had fallen in love and i loved it but yet i was so scared
I used to be in love a long time ago and i got my heart broken so i didn't know if i was prepared
"How could i be prepared if one day i might get my heart broken once more?" I was so scared
Ive had my heart broken so many times but this guy, he really cared
Honestly, I don't know why but everything just started to go wrong
Every night we promised each other we would be together forever and he always told me to stay strong
How could i stay strong when every time i fall in love it turns out to be a game
I fall in love and get my heart broken, its always been the same
Every day we would fight and every day i would cry my self to sleep
Putting my face into the pillow so no one would hear me weep
It wasn't only me, he cryed as well
Then it started getting so bad instead of telling me it was okay, he would yell
Now i wake up every morning crying and i go to bed every night wanting to die
I really cant make up my mind, do i love him or should i just say goodbye?
This hurts me so much and i want everything to actually be okay
I need him and i really want him to stay
He has truly been the best mistake ever
But we did promise each other we would be together forever
