If I'm useless, I'm done

by Chelsey   Nov 5, 2006


Oh God I hope you’re listening right now
Instead of praying I’d like to “talk”
I’m sure you can see my head hanging low when I speak
And there’s a difference in the way I walk

I’m asking you the nicest way I know how
To use me somehow in this world
Because I feel I have no reason to be here
I feel like a useless girl

You heard the words screamed tonight
They’re only together because of me
So if I end it all now maybe they’ll be happy
Unless your plan for my life is worth living

I can’t take it anymore
Can you just answer me why?
I swear our prayers for him have been answered
Now he’s back to being a grumpy guy

We’re sure he is back to drinking
We think he has split personalities now
And if you answered our prayers earlier
Why’d this happen and how?

God I don’t want to be in this house anymore
Please just tell me what to do
If you have no plan for my life now
I’m two seconds from saying “I’m through”

They don’t need me here anymore
With a separation it’d be a mess anyway
Oh God just explain to me very slowly
Exactly what went down today

I’m so scared to even hug him now
My own father, my flesh and blood
But if I approach him I’ll surely drown him
My tears will just make a huge flood

Life is no longer filled with rainbows and daisies
Nor is it filled with a huge supply of balloons

God if I’m a useless human being
Can I get it over with soon?

    report violation
0


Did You Like This Poem?

Latest Comments

  • 18 years ago

    by CY GINDLE

    WOW. this poem broke my heart
    well written. as for god answering
    you good luck with that. I realize
    while i live the life you desribe
    that god is either too busy or there
    is no such person. you better talk to someone soon and get help or. Your
    get older. move out youth . and
    continue the vicious cycle. i know
    it sounds fu** up but thats how it works. PAIN IS A UNAVOILDABLE PART
    OF LIFE. thank you for sharing.

  • 18 years ago

    by Roxy

    Wow..hunnie this poem is so sad i t shows so much in this one single piece.
    I do the same thing i write down what i feel well to me this poem is great i love it with all my heart.
    I dont even kno whow to explain how i like this poem but there is something that glitters through it slowly.
    I'm sure that every thing will be ok sweetie.
    xox roxyxox (wish you the best)

  • 18 years ago

    by dariela

    I like this poem. even though its very sad, i still like it, and i can relate to this poem.
    ps- check out ma poems, pplllzzz comment + vote

  • 18 years ago

    by Danielle

    Sad story

  • 18 years ago

    by robin milford

    5/5 this is a great poem. Your not useless. Everyone has a purpose. I sometimes feel that way to "useless". I think everyone does sometimes. Keep writing hun.

Read All Comments (16)

More Poems By Chelsey