A curse I could not rid.

It been quite awhile since I last saw her
I wonder how her life has been
Mine's been long, both good and bad
That's what a lifetime often is.

I wish she were here to see me
How the young man she knew has grown
It never has been easy
Without her love I grew alone.

Will these feelings ever leave me?
Do I really want them to?
I cling to them so dearly
They're all I've left of you.

The letter I sent her
The one I wrote through tears I cried
Was returned to me unopened
Never seen by her sweet eyes.

It told the story of a lifetime
One where we'd be wed
Everyday with her was heaven
At night she led me to her bed.

Memories of the past still haunt me
They come to me in the night
That dream of us together lingers
The one where she is my wife.

The depths to which I've traveled
My heart feeling like a stone
The true love that left me
That pain I now call home.

It travels with me always
We're never far apart
The winds of change, they don't affect it
When a love comes from the heart.

So, if she's passing my way
I hope she'll say hello
It's just her love I wanted
A long, long time ago.

I saw it in her eyes so clear
The night she left me
There was a love inside of them
Yearning to be free.

They closed on me so quickly
Leaving not a chance
To show her how right she was
When she first asked me to dance.

If only I had met her
A few years before 'he' did
But destiny stood between us
A curse I could not rid.

Where were the words I searched for?
The one's I prayed so hard to find
The one's you speak unto an angel
When you try to change her mind.

Maybe they were lost somewhere
Out in time and space
To be spoken by another
Who said them in my place.

There was an evening long ago
She wanted us to become one
I didn't think the time was right
And that it should be done.

I never knew that chance I had
Was going to be my last
To make love unto an angel
Who now lives within my past.

Another lifetime awaits us
Somehow this one our souls did miss
I know we've both been here before
An angel sealed with a kiss.

So, if these dreams should come true
And our souls again do touch
I hope she can recall the time
I loved her very, very much.

note; I will seek you in the shadow of the moon; the landscape of disgorged thoughts. with my battalion of love poems that once i wrote, even my words.