My Life Was Born To Be A Tragedy

Its hard to wake up
When your know your days going to be full of disgraced looks
Its hard to keep on smiling
When you know your not being true.

Its hard to look past the people
Who hate you to such an extent
Its hard to give complete commitment
When you cant even make yourself trust,
The person whos most important to you.

When I get home
Completely alone
I let go of my fake smile and whisper
Hoping a non-existent figure will hear me and stop
I dont want to be me

Cry myself to sleep
How else can I keep myself sane?
What do you expect I do
When you put me down
Go on like I pretend?
Thats just what you see