Not you, its me

I'm sitting on the side walk,
hoping you'd look at me and start to talk,
but you pass me by,
and I'm still believing in a stupid lie.
To you I am just invisible,
oh yeah go ahead just let my tears dribble,
though I shouldn't blame you,
You have know idea I exist,
I just don't know what to do,
i just persist.

How could you fool me,
and not even notice,
like cupid shot his arrow to quickly,
and made a great big miss.

Oh how I hate you,
or at least I wish I could,
I am living in denial,
Because I know I still love you and I somehow I find ways for why I should.

You're happy,
that makes me happy,
but I want more,
it's my heart you tore,
but you're never going to know,
because my feelings for you are never going to show.

They are bottled up inside,
so when asked I lied,
"No I hate him, how could I ever steep so low",
but the fact is that it's not you who makes me low,
It's me and my stupid feelings that I am afraid to show.