When everyone is sleeping
I cant stop but think
Why I do it and why I cant stop
The relief
The high you feel
Just knowing that no one can hurt you
Everyday is the same
You feel the pain and agony of it
I dream of what it will be like if I was gone from here
I you look in my eyes you will see all the pain
I wait for the next day to come
Hoping it will be better
I cant stop thinking
Late at night when everyone is sleeping I get closer to dieing
One day I will be there and I wonder what they would do
What did I use?
Pills? Blades? A Rope?
I think of it every night since I know it wont get better
I would hope that they would feel the pain of me dieing
So I know that they did love me at least a little
But till then I bring a little relief with an object I feel is my best friend
I just hope that all the people I care about know that I love them and always will
There is nothing I wouldnt do to change but its just to hard
