Obsessions

Hatred lingers inside my soul
As an ever lasting hole

Scars upon my wrists
Show me that my life does exist

Your charity and willingness to help
Destroys me, like you didn't
know

The worlds against me
All but you

The worlds getting worse
As I try to get better

You are scared to help me
But you do care

Avoiding you is killing me
All by itself

Do I dare to pull out the razor blade
And try to escape
from this horrible place

although its a slow and paipainfullyath
its what i am willing to do
to get away from you

I know your doing this b/c you care
I love you all the same

Its just too hard
To see you

Look you in the face,
And say nothing b/c Iam not allowed to

My love is showing ,
as I cry my now blood filled tears

I love you and I always will,
I just wish I could see you,
in the way I used to