Goodbye Friend

Please do not leave me stranded here alone.
As I know that is what I did to you.
I do not make excuses, so don't take this as one.
I am not trying to brainwash you into forgiveness.

It's far too impossible for me to hate you.
You are my leaning post, my solid ground.
Without you I would fall into despair.
And I can only apologize so many times.
Now it's up to you to decide if I am sorry enough.

If not then I will do anything and everything,
To get you back to my side.
You are the closest thing I have to sanity.
My dearest friend, that I will never underestimate,
Or under appreciate.

Somehow I don't think I would be able to go on,
Knowing that you weren't there to build me up.
You're the one person that I will always choose.
I know that I don't deserve to be forgiven.
I was out of my mind to risk ignoring you.

At the end of the day I realize that it's impossible.
One can not go with out oxygen or water.
The same applies to me with you.
If you were unable to look at me in the eyes,
I would parish and collapse into death.
I regret everything that happened and wish,
That it could all be forgotten.
It was one of the largest mistakes I have ever made.
All I can say that I am truly sorry. -