I was obligated to tell u

Lost and confused what should I do
I sit at home and wait by the phone a phone that never rings just wishing it is you god brings
I try to get up and get out of the house but being without you I hide like a mouse
i can't even go and have a good time without feeling ashamed that it is you i can't find
I don't know why I feel that way you go out and do your own thing everyday
and if I go out i feel guilty like I just committed a sin I try to smile but it doesn't hide what I feel within
I always feel like I'm obligated to tell you what I do even though I know I don't have to
Even when guys want to talk to me, I feel like I'm cheating even though I only see you very rarely
I guess the respect that I had for you is taking its toll on the things I do
I always thought about how you would feel if I did something that to you would be a big deal
I never did things without telling you first that way if I did you wouldn't feel hurt
I guess Its just taking some time to get passed being with you, but I don't want to be single it is you I only want to be true to

My poems aren't that great today but I'm writing them anyway, I just feel confused right now.