You wouldnt believe...

You wouldn't believe how much I still cry
Doesn't seem to let up as months go by
I miss him more than you'll ever understand
This wasn't how I had things planned

The numbness of it all wearing away
still wondering if its all real to this very day
Never knowing my true emotion
Couldn't keep him here with mere devotion

I question that as much as everything
and I will always feel that painful sting
my faults can never be remade
Not even if you could have stayed

The pain of missing him to much to comprehend
words could never describe it, my friend
You'd think it was all getting better as months go by
But I'm not lying when I tell you I still cry, cry, cry.