Suicidal extascy

Sitting in my room
the lights are gone
because so are you
the pain is bringing me closer
i see something shiny in the dark
then i see red
that crimson color
even though its pitch black
the days of pain are almost over
i see the light and hear the voices
then they fade and i'm gone again
they say i need counciling
maybe for once your wrong
they fade away
and here is my blackness again