That one night

That one night when u called me, you wanted me to go on a walk with you; that was harmless enough. if only i knew that u were gonna be so perfect, if only i knew that after that walk i was going to want you like i havent wanted anyone in a very long time. if only i knew that after that walk i would want to tell you everything you want to know, i would want to open up to you and let myself be vulnerable, if only i knew that i would find someone who has gone through all the things i have, if only i knew that i would find everything i was looking for, i would have never gone with you on that walk.

i would never had wanted to know everything i know now, i would never have wanted to open up to you like it did, telling you things i havent ever told anyone else. i would never had wanted to know you like that, but now that i do i am tortured, now that i do i want you soo much, and i can put you on the list of things i want but cant have, things i desire but cant take, yet another girl that sees me as a friend, and nothing more than a friend.

if only i knew that, that night you and i took a walk i would start to fall for you, if only i knew that; i would never had gone on that walk with you.