This Depression You're In

Dont think I can just stop caring
Dont think I can just turn my back on you
After all weve been through
I dont think Ill ever pull back my hand from reaching out
You dont know how many times
I wish giving up would solve everything
But that always makes it worse
Thats why we should keep on rollin along
If anyone gets in our way theyll learn
That no one can come between our friendship

But this depression youre in
No matter how hard I try to keep us from sinking
You keep falling deeper and deeper
And now youre pulling me down with you
Now constantly we fight when I tell you how I want to help
And theres never a day where I can be with you
And not feel disheartened when you lower your eyes when you walk

I feel like I cant confide in you at all any more
Recently when I told you that I lost someones trust
All you said was, Well at least someone trusted you
And when I found out why my parents separated
I told you why, I thought youd understand and comfort me
All you said was, Life sucks get used to it

When we fight, its the worst
We have screaming arguments but
A few minutes later youll pop in the room
Giggling with a smile on your face
It hurts a lot that youd think it doesnt affect me afterwards
And Im apparently supposed to just forget about it
Well, no I dont forget about it
It still sticks in my mind for months
And when I bring it up, youll change the subject
Its a cycle that happens over and over again
Fight, forgive, fight, forgive
Well, thats wrong; I never really have completely forgiven you
When the only way you vent your anger is on me
I feel like Im being used
Its so hard to deal with this

I wish youd just get help, because
No matter how many times others and I have tried
Nothing gets through to you
You keep building the wall around you thicker and taller
Sooner or later I wont ever be able to see you
Youll always be hidden from everyone
Thats what you want, isnt it
But Its not worth it
Cos its the best feeling to be happy
And to fall in love and be successful
But that cant happen if you decide to stay withdrawn

If I told someone you need help
Youd probably really hate me for a time
But I think Im willing to take the risk
All I want is for you to be happy
And also everyone else around you that youre bringing down
With your own unhappiness
And I wish that Ill be able to look at you again and feel glad
But most of all
I wish that youll be able to look at the world and feel in high spirits
For the first time since you were little