I'm on this roller coaster called life
there is dips and bumps and i hate it. i wasn't it to stop!
I want to get off. I want it to end. I cant see much. its so dark in here. I feel trapped and I cant get out. I see something ahead. another drop. As i fall i feel a hand grab mine. I open my eyes and looked over and there you are. As the ride goes you never let go. You make me feel safe. But then i get scared. Is this all too good to be true. Are you holding my hand because you need someone or something to hold or are you holding my hand because I am scared and you want MY hand? I let go. I cant feel his hand. So i reach out and grab a hand because I don't want to be alone. It isn't you. This hand doesn't hold mine back. THIS hand holds mine because it needs a hand to hold. It doesn't hold my hand because i am scared and because it is MY hand. I realize you did. Now i am alone again. With no hand to hold. I start to cry. I want your hand. I regret letting go. I look next to me and there you are in the shadows. You were there the whole time. I reach out to you. But you don't grab my hand. I realize why. I understand. I plead with you. To give me one more chance.
Will you take my hand before I fall? Will you make this ride what it once was. I want you in my roller coaster of life. I will hold you hand. Like I promised to so long ago. I wont let go. Because without you I am falling! These tears I shed are all for you. I realize I let go and that I broke that trust. Please give me a chance. I am falling..still falling.. please catch me!
