What fate is this?

Lately I've been feeling
abandoned
but it has nothing to do
with you
Its all me
the monster
ravaging my heart
has eaten away at
my sanity
I've discovered
I can hide it
no longer
who am I now?
after all the pain?
the changes I put
myself through?
no matter where I am
I am still missing
I cant find
myself
the pinkness
of flesh
is finally taken over
by the burnt outer layer
I am no longer
anything recognizable
not human anymore
I am
a monster
a rabid mixture
of flesh and blood and bone
wild with anger
and confusion
my name
disintegrates
S-e-r-e-n-i-t-y...
fading away
to dust and ash
the charred remains
of my former self
what fate is this?
to die so slowly
on the lips of those
I once loved?
a whisper of a kiss
goodbye?
what demons of darkness
have possessed me?
to lead me to
such an ungrateful end?
but no choice is given
to those forsaken
a black cell
awaits me
walls of imprisonment
to keep me from life
oh!
but I shall go mad
with insanity
my mind stretches
to the furthest limits
of discovery
but my body
is kept alive
for years and years
imprisoned
what fate is this?
to be caught
in rusty shackles?
hanging by a single thread
of hope?
what fate is this?
lately I've been feeling
abandoned
but it has nothing to do
with you
oh, nothing to do with
you
who have kept me here
imprisoned
nothing to do with
you
who keep me alive
but barely
for I still love
you
who keep me away
from everything good
and beautiful
that thin layer of trust
fades
and now
alone
I love no longer
I live no longer
what fate is this?
to die alone?
with not a breath of love
nor a touch of hope?
What fate is this?
for one who once was
to be no more?
passably forgotten?
what fate is this?