Mistake

I have become everything I hate.
I amm despondent and weak...
I changed my hair style, my attitude.
I wonder what he will think...
Is this a good change, or a bad one?
I just want him to feel the same way.
Somewhere inside him, I know he cares.
I just cannot see myself with anyone else but him.
I want him back!
Not that I had ever had him to begin with..
It kills me that I feel this way for him,
How strong my feelings are. It scares me.
Getting over him seems impossible,
But maybe that would make him happy.
I wish I knew what was going through his mind.
I wish he was mean to me, so that I could hate him.
He is too nice of a person though...
One thing I know about him, is that he is an honest guy.
When he said he doubted we would end up together,
He was serious...
Everything is hitting me now.
I feel that all of this is a mistake.
Falling for HIM, Meeting HIM, and trying out for the play.
Maybe everything I did was all a mistake.
Maybe everything that I will ever do is going to be a mistake.
Maybe, I am a mistake...
Just a mistake...

....Mistake....