My Own Sake

As i lay awake
day after day again and again
all the pain i want to take
all for my own sake

i don't mean to think about it
sometimes it slips my thought
it hurts when i do
all the time, i get caught

sometimes i don't even notice
when i see you i will stare
i think about what we used to have
our love was very rare

being with you
is something ill always regret
but then how come i still love you?
its painful to keep it secret

i think you know that i know
i see you looking at me too
because we know each time we are together
our love always grew

i will always cry
and still keep wondering why
because i hate you
and every thing you do

I'm not alone
but theres nobody here
nobody to hear me
no one to wipe my tears

all those tears will dry
and i will love again
but ill never let you go
all for my own sake