I'm Sorry

You don't know how hard I tried,
you'd never understand.
I was so strong for you,
but they didn't cause this.
I really liked yo,
and that's why it's all my fault.
You were probably the best one,
to ever love me.
You were so passionate,
that's what drew me in.
I'll never forgive myself and neither will you,
for what I'm about to do.
You'll never see it coming,
and maybe that's the best.
Please don't try to stop me,
it's already hard enough.
I know you love me,
but I just can't return that.
I was the worst person you could've found,
even though you thought I was the best.
I flirted with my friends all behind your back,
you never figured out because I made you clueless.
I'm the worst person in the world,
everything would be much better if I wasn't here.
You'd love someone who loved you back,
and you'd be happier than you were with me.
You may think I'm all that's holding your world together,
but you were doing good on your own.
You tell me I'm you best thing in three years,
but if you knew my secrets you'd die.
I've thought about this a lot,
and this is the best thing.
Please don't cry,
please don't plead,
just let me do what I need.
You must understand,
that this is all for you.
You need someone to treat you right,
who will love you with their whole heart.
I can't do that,
why I haven't figured that out yet.
I want you to forget about me,
and move on with your life.
Someday you'll understand,
that I was so bad,
you'll hopefully look back and forgive me.
I want you to know,
I'm sitting in my chair crying because of what I've done to you.
I never should've treated you like I did,
but now there's no turning back.
Maybe later when I'm fixed,
I will be able to see what you saw in me.
But as for now I'm sitting alone,
saying I'm sorry, for not loving you back.