No words

Try to talk but no words come, try to scream but your voice is gone the only thing you can do is cry.Sometimes i just wanna scream PLEASE SOMEONE SHOOT ME!What do you do when the person who alwayz told you to have faith lost their faith when u finally gained yours..?Nothing ever turns out the way we want it to....nor does it turn out the way we think it will....I'm just a normal girl expressing her feelings the only way she knows how....There's nobody here but me and my reflection...I don't know which one I hate more...Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep people out...but to see who cares enough to tear them down...The hand behind this pen, relives a failure everyday....I'm going to smile like nothing's wrong, talk like everything's perfect, act like it's just a dream, and pretend he's not hurting me...And in case you were wondering...you were everything to me...
I'm not negative...I'm just realistic...I'm not living, just merely existing...She puts on a show, fooling everyone.
But deep down she wants people to know that she is dying inside.I hate to wish, because wishes are just dreams, and my dreams never come true.But when i think about it, we all need dreams, wishes and hope otherwise why would we live??