I hope that you understand
everything now,
to tell you the truth i don't know
what i was thinking,
i thought we needed time apart,
but what i later found out was,
that you was going to ask me to marry you.
what a wonderful time to do
something like i did, huh?
i tried to make it work with other guys
but it was just different.
i don't know why.
i fell in love with one guy
because of his little girl.
then i tried it with his brother,
and he said that i was too....
outgoing for him.
then i had decided to move far away,
to get away from all of my unhappiness.
but the one i loved so dear that lived down there,
he seemed to stop talking to me.
what really got to me was leaving everybody,
i couldn't leave my little sis,
i couldn't leave my mom,
and i sure as hell couldn't leave my dad
because he was actually showing me that he loved me.
the one thing i had waited for years
and finally had given up on.
so then i finally got the nerve to text you one day.
but to my findings
i found out that you had a girlfriend,
so i went the other way
and told you nothing about me having feeling for you.
i started to date a guy that was younger than me,
but then you and your girl broke up.
and that made me happy,
but i still didn't really tell you anything.
you started to date other girls,
and i was really jealous,
so thats when i had decided
that i needed to tell you how i felt.
and come to my findings
i found out that you had felt the same way
but didn't want to say anything...
but i have told you that i don't want to date you,
until i can finally see you everyday
or almost everyday....
