U yell at me i get depressed i go upstairs inside my nest and get a razor from my desk i cut my self 7 times 2 on my wrists and 5 on my thigh it doesn't hurt at all it feels really good just like the girl in the book said it would i only did it once but now i feel like i need it against thats all in my head i can stop anytime i want to but i don't know if i want to i can win this fight or lose it right now I'm caught in the middle hanging by a thread if i make a mistake i might end up dead guess thats a risk ill have to take this is my decision to make there goes another guess that makes it 8
