Crying and Dying everyday 4 u!

I may look unhappy,
but I'm really not.
I may be smiling,
but on the inside I'm really not OK.
Ever since i lost you,
it's been this way.
I keep telling myself that I'm OK,
when I'm not,
because i can't seem to get over you.
Seeing you with her,
watching the way you hold her,
remembering that you used to hold me that way too.
I put on a fake smile everyday,
just for you,
hoping, praying, that deep down somewhere,
you still love me too.
does that gives you a clue?
Every night i cry for you,
I'm afraid to tell you,
I'm afraid of what you might say.
I'm afraid you'll say you don't still love me,
in every possible way,
as much as i love you,
what did i do to deserve this?
please tell me but,
i know i hurt you,
and that's something that i have to live with every single day.
I am truly sorry for the pain i caused you,
And i hope that maybe,
if not right now,
that someday you will forgive me and love me too.
Everyday i try to smile,
just for you,
but it's hard,
because I'm too busy crying and missing you,
maybe, hopefully, you'll love me too,
one day,
But until then,
Every minute of everyday,
I will love you and miss you.
Wishing that ugly girl will one day leave!
Then you'll understand but just for the record,
You are and will always be my one true love!