Misunderstanding

Standing outside
the clouds darken
and the rain pours down
soaking every inch of me

as i stand there
the cold sets in
i shiver
as each breeze blows

all around I'm surrounded by darkness
i can hear whispers of my name
but the rain pours on
drenching me in every drop

now i stand in my world
the world that no one knows
here is where my emotions stand
in here is were i cry

outside
the shadows consume me
never having a chance at all
breathing is my very challenge
sometimes i ask
why i even try?

but i guess its what I'm supposed to do
wake each morning
dress each day
learn nothing
where ever i travel

but this is what i question
why do i stand in the middle of a lake
a lake that drowns me in lies
branches off to failure
and becomes a slow puddle

something that just waits
smiling as i fail
laughing as a crumble

someday
i guess i will learn the truth
but until then
my days are numbered

my body will grow weak
and i will bleed
for every falter