I feel hollowness

This life is so fast that it ends and life suddenly feels like a dream,
What I have been feeling is ignorance,
She doesnt care a bit whether I live or die,
Emotions turn to stone as eyes dry of water,
This frustration kills me, eats me from inside,
Sufferer bears the burden and implications are high,
My thinking has no end my path is unknown,
I run in darkness bang with a wall, a cool anger rising under my brow,
Soon I will be inhuman soon I will be cold,
All but cause of one how could I be such a fool,
Raw emotions take control over me making me what I hate,
Now is what I don't want to be now is when I am sold,
Someone so heartless selfish a being,
Ripped me open cut deep into my veins,
That stare so warm came to be strange and cold,
Nothing it seems left as mine in this world,
What to live for what to be for on earth,
No cause no action no human to care, no earth beneath my feet,
No sky above my head, no trees, no people,
Just me alone walking on the streets, no dust, no rain,
Cold nights follow cold sun, no stars, nothing on the big lonely earth,
Feel no emotions but anger, frustration, pain,
I am wrong or I am right, does not matter as no expectations,
I am what I am change is what will be, for better or for worse,
Blood also doesnt come out so hollow its it seems,
No one can make a difference now none can make me bleed,
Death, horror, darkness anything may it be,
Nothing will budge that what I am afraid,
Had but ignored the gates once, the very that I enter today,
So I have become hollow without suffering or pain,
You said its all bullshit that people change, I feel no difference,
I feel no more its permanent I guess, its here to stay,
Because I have no angel, have no cause to bear, just me here,
So funny what once I had seen is what I have become,
Made life hard for myself, jumped into the fire hole,
Now I am all burnt, I am all ashes; I am not flesh or bone,
No more alive to feel, still I standup tall, inside I don't even breathe,
All one from outside, inside I am eaten, worms, ants, leeches
Feed on my inside, blood dissolves within, many cuts on heart,
Now every cut a big wound, my blood is sucked as my emotions sold,
Fainting eyes shuddering body, I am near the end,
Something can never be explained some things never told,
Want to run fast far away from here; this doesn't belong to me anymore,
Doesn't need my presence here, just waiting for my farewell, for the final word,
Kill me please if it pleases you, finish the formality,
In some other's ignorance I feel pain,
Better not to feel anything if to be in such state,
Wish I could just cut open my neck finished forever,
In the search of salvation I turn to darkness,
Dark alleys dark road, broken houses broken gates,
Seems anyone can enter in once forbidden place,
No animals not a leaf moves, such silence comes to within,
Every breathe little by little comes to make me bit alive,
For the moment it's all a dream, for a moment it's all real,
Don't want to feel anything; life kills me faster as body kills pain,
My savior is lost; music comes to my ear but not a note,
Free flowing air with no meaning,
Eyes see what mind wants it to be seen,
Our body just a remote control in its hands,
My palms sweat as I feel coming back to life,
It's me again but not really me, it's my eyes my face, but with a change,
Heartbeat without a sound, breathe without air,
Stares me still the round deep eyes but my reflection has changed,
Speak when you wanted, hear when heard.