Blah, just questions i ask myself

Lately life has been so complicated
as it always was and always will be
i dont know who my friends are anymore
and im not quite sure if i have any left at all
nor am i quite sure of what love is
yet i use the word constantly
can i by definition be in love
or does the definition even matter
is it just something in your heart
or is it the affection, the words, the time, the names?
what is it?
do you have to grovel on your knees and beg for their heart
do you have to buy them material objects til they\'re happy and you\'re broke
do you have to shout it to the world
and post it in a bulletin on myspace
do you have to create a web-site all about them
proving that you\'re a crazed and obsessed fan
do you have to plan a wedding or think of kids
do you have to like the same things and change who you are
do you have to buy a whole new wardrobe because they dont like your taste in clothing
do you have to write them love letter after love letter explaining your undying affection for them
if \"love\" really takes so much then why bother being involved?
why change your life for the worst
only to suffer from heartbreak?